I beat myself up a lot wondering why I didn’t fit in with other people. Everyone else seems to have 1000 friends on facebook while I prefer my solitude.

I get overloaded with too many people. I go to school 25 hours a week and that is enough for my social interaction. Anything else takes too much out of me. You have the time you spend socializing plus the down time you need to re-charge your battery.

Sometimes I get sick of society pushing all these empty squares for people to fill up. Not everyone is a square.

When you look to actors you see the most phenomenal ones have always been different.. Always been weird, to sensitve.. It’s the only way to be a great actor in my opinion.

I am that “gifted” inventive-creative person who is highly sensitive, and mind-boggling creative…and I am also a pseudo-extrovert. I say this, because I have managed to take “defensive” action in my life by being the outgoing person in the room. It is disarming for people, and they must choose quickly how they will interact with me. However; this is not my true place of comfort…I would much rather be alone where I can paint, draw, do photography, write, design and edit videos, or play on the piano, or write music in my music programs. I can do this for hours…on my own, and I never feel discontent.

What I have not realized for the last 26 years or so; I am in fact a “gifted” person (and this is still quite uncomfortable to acknowledge), but now it all makes sense to me.

I have always been told; “you are just too sensitive”, and “you just need to relax”, or, “don’t take it so personal”; but how can I not be sensitive? I have learned that I am “hardwired” this way…my brain IS this way, it’s not something I control, or can control. I admit, I understand we must make the decision to choose how we let situations affect us, and our response to them; but, I am so tired of the world around me telling me that I am a certain way, and this certain way is wrong. I absolutely hate it. I wish the rest of the world could understand what this state of being is truly like.

I did not have a supportive family, they failed to understand me, and so did many of the teachers in my life when I was in school. I ended up becoming that percentage who is gifted, but was not developed and consequently flew under the radar so to speak. Indeed, my natural tendency to create, to understand, to explore…lead me into many different directions (thankfully, I did use my unknown smartness to fill the void through my creative aspirations), but, it has never been a completely successful venture for many reasons (that I am now beginning to understand…ADD).

So, it has been truly the most wonderful thing in the world to discover Talent Develop website, and now this one. I don’t know how I managed to survive as long as I have. Thanks so much for providing all this wonderful information to those of us who just didn’t know the truth about our real selves.