i recently turned 46 so i have had a long life being
ultra sensitive, and lived a life of empathy that was
in a way very determental to my own well being,(trying to over love the mean people thinking that if only they had love they would change and become Nice or Good … ah the innocence !

And it really was a struggle for a while there (living in this world)
until i learned my coping skills
and i am intent on keeping Myself more safe these days, having My life, and helping with words, or pictures or art that i create
with Energy more than Involvement in others lives these days, although i do associate, i keep it brief, deep and lasting.

mostly because involvement means absorbing
their vibrations,

i am exceedingly receptive, compulsively creative, an analyser, problem solver and innovative with ideas.

i did try so hard to “function” as a normal mundane person, to have acceptance, to feel that i too belong here,

but it cant be hidden at all and once i realised that Others do not think like i do, and the flock do not accept me as normal nor even like them, i had to grow up and understand myself, and learn how to protect myself properly. I had to find my coping skills.

and often-times i can be such a magnet and draw so many people to me that i get frightened ! ( cos i feel also envy and actual Hate from the fringes and background)

So i ran away and i lived in a forest for 7 years ( The best!)

and i thrived in Nature with the elements in isolation,

it was my Heaven on Earth

but i had to rejoin society again (family obligations)and that was so shocking and something i was unprepared for because i hadnt had that energy around me for ages, and bad energy about me had grown over those years that i wasnt around

and a strip of my hair turned white

and again i near gave up and gave in and near let go my life and my will to live

and i analysed the heck out of all that

and i put myself to school again to understand and be understood and now i am labeled as an artist

which is a term i am far more comfortable with than witch or weird, or other unmentionable names

i thought i must be bipolar for a while there too cos i get so effected by things and have no control

Like recently, we visted the museum where all the names
of the WW1 soldiers names are on the walls,

and i didnt know what area of the building we were entering ( it was a tour) but as i entered the room i just started Sobbing!

( so embarrassing!)

and i was really choked up and covered my mouth with my jersey cos i couldnt stop the tears and sobs coming out,

and i have to live with these reactions all the time,
needless to say, i avoid things like tv and movies and am petrified by anything scary!(include people!)

I am a believer in Energy, and i think this way, if i am

able to instantly percieve people and situations, as sensations, i am slso capable of directing some enery out there, the loving smile, the kind word, the soft touch of companionship.
I also pray to Jesus every time i have to walk out of my door that he hold my hand so that i am not afraid

but sometimes i am weak, especially when people are real mean,

so now i pay attention to my intuition and inner sensations and i listen to my inner self 100% of the time

and if that means that i dont go to work, or miss a trip out, or a dinner occassion, then thats what has to happen,

and i might feel alittle gutted or disappointed,or even upset with myself,
but when i hear the stories of what did happen, well, you can imagine i am real realived that i did listen to myself and follow my own course.

it is an isolating life being HSP, but i love my own company and no-one really does understand, but it makes for Peace, a real and true Peace for my area in this World, that is felt by all,

cos our heart IS that big

i encourage you all to follow Peace first and keep Our Happiness a priority 1st, only in this way can we really be of benefit to the world as a whole, cos we have a power, a real power and only through our own safe Well-Being in this world protected by the hand of Jesus can we emit it in the LOVE

dont go it alone, when he is here for us all xo

Sending My Love to Everyone of You out there xoxox
from Jaynice

I myself am a HSP, I have recently discovered this. I myself am residing in cpt and I would so love to meet someone like myself!!!
You have no idea how much that would mean to me omg, just to feel that sense of peace & happiness internally being around someone like myself…
I almost came to a point of thinking I’m seriously abnormal & began hating these gifts (not knowing at the time) pleeeease let me know if its possible?? My email is jamieleepatrick@gmail.com or you can even add me on FB using my email. Would mean so much to me. And this goes out to all the others like me PLS

Your comment is over a year old, but if you are reading this still, the thing that jumps out at me right away is you need serious empathy, or compassion, in a therapist. Someone who doesn’t just PRETEND to listen, understand, and care (I can tell when I’m being patronized, and you probably can too) but who actually DOES listen, understand and care.

You’d think that therapists should be able to do that, that it would be a basic prerequisite even, but sadly there are many that do not.

Natalie, my only suggestion is to put it to work. For me I make a good living trouble shooting computer networks around the world. I wouldn’t trade this brain for any other… It just took a while to figure out how to get it to do what I needed it to and now for the most part it does. I still get social anxiety in a lot of situations, but technology has no feelings and either works or doesn’t for logical reasons… It’s far easier to deal with.

Honestly, when I deal with people, often times I already have determined how smart they are.. what their motives are.. whether I like them or not. I guess in other words they become objects that I have to deal with, and I find their simplicity uninteresting and disappointing.

You just have to get comfortable in your own skin. Say what you want to say and do what you want to do. Hopefully you already do something you like for a living or you will drive yourself crazy or at a minimum you’ll feel like you’re wasting your time/life.

I hope you take comfort in me saying, I know how you feel… because I do.

Sometimes people live with this condition and never knew there was a name for it… and then they find a website or watch prison break and see or hear about it.

If someone has a genius IQ and is aware of everything around them… I think they can figure it out. It’s not like they are retarded or in some other reality.

@Nini: I had similar hardship in my life, and overcame it against all odds. The IQ test always seemed mundane to me, to say the least, and I still don’t quite understand why people are surprised about my score. Isn’t it odd that so many people in this world rely on the results of multiple-choice tests to tell them who and what they are?

@Guy: It has been difficult for me to realize that I am different from others because I was taught that everyone thinks the same way. Over time, I came to the conclusion that there is absolutely no way that the people around me could be dealing with what I do on a daily basis and still be able to function in quite the same manner. Although it is hard for people with LLI to accept, I think there is a point when you have to face the fact that you’re different.